[04 Mar 2005|03:04am] i think im really like someone new, someone i thought i never would start to gain feelings for. my best friend. I used to hate her, but we have gotten so close. and now that feelings are involved. i hope i dont ruin our relationship. I know i dont have a chance with her. I actually dont think i should tell her, should i? 5 comments|post comment

[21 Feb 2005|06:03am] I think im falling inlove with her again! I knew i would always love her, but i never thought that i could fall like this all over again. Theres just something about her, Shes Amazing. post comment

[03 Feb 2005|01:26am] Next Time- I lie awake and die I try but can't deny That I can make it without her I can't forget the day, I let her slip away And I'm still dreamin about her Can a heart forgive Cuz I just can't live without her The next time you see my girl Won't you say that I, I will die, I would die to hold her The next time you see my girl Won't you tell her I love her The next time you see my girl Maybe the next time, mm hmm I walk the streets at night See lovers passerby And it's all a reminder Of what it used to be When she was here with me I only wish I could find her Did she disappear Cuz I'm waiting right here for her The next time you see my girl Won't you say that I, I will die, I would die to hold her The next time you see my girl Won't you tell her I love her The next time you see my girl I close my eyes I see her face and I realize Right in front of me, I had it all but I set her free So next time you see my girl Oh, won't you tell her that I'm sorry And tell her that I love her The next time you see my girl Won't you say that I, I will die, I would die to hold her The next time you see my girl Won't you tell her I love her The next time you see my girl Ghost of You and Me- What am I supposed to do with all these blues Haunting me everywhere No matter what i do Watching the candle flicker out In the evening glow I can't let go, when will that night be over I didn't mean to fall in love with you And baby there's a name for what you put me through It isn't love it's robbery I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by Phantom ships, lost at sea Well one of them is mine Raising my glass I sing a toast to the midnight sky I wonder why the stars don't seem to guide me I didn't mean to fall in love with you And baby there's a name for what you put me through It isn't love it's robbery I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me The ghost of you and me When will it set me free I hear the voices call Following footsteps down the hall Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow I can't let go When will this night be over I didn't mean to fall in love with you And baby there's a name for what you put me through It isn't love it's robbery I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me Unpredictable- How can I convince you that you're really not alone And I know exactly what you're goin through Nothing is for certain But there's one thing that I know Never underestimate what love can do I want to show you Even though there are no guarantees Just let me hold you Love can do most anything If you just believe It can take you to the highest high Make you sacrifice it all Love is unpredictable It can change your life forever It may never hear your call Love is unpredictable na na na na na Love is unpredictable You don't need to justify And you don't need to wait All will be revealed to us in time If you intellectualize the meaning of this fate You may never know what we could find Don't keep me waiting Don't ya keep me hangin on the line, no I'm only saying You won't know what love can do If you never try It can take you to the highest high Make you sacrifice it all Love is unpredictable It can change your life forever It may never hear your call Love is unpredictable na na na na na Love is unpredictable Oo oh oo oh oo oh oo oh oo oh oo dn't you wanna see Which way this love will go It can take you to the highest high Love is unpredictable It can change your life forever Love is unpredictable It can take you to the highest high Make you sacrifice it all Love is unpredictable It can change your life forever It may never hear your call Love is unpredictable na na na na na Love is unpredictable Again- Can you help me ease the pain Can I hold you once again Ya know they often say that love is blind My heart can't see The reason why you left that love behind Is hurting me Is there a chance that we can be again Is there a chance that we can be again Hold my head up Wipe the tears I ain't cryin for you no more Ya know they often say that love is blind My heart can't see The reason why you left that love behind is hurting me Is there a chance that we can be again Is there a chance that we can be again Still On your Side- I will stand up for you No matter what you're goin through You've found the place where you belong New friends who can do no wrong That's what you believe But who's gonna be there when you fall To build you up when you're feeling small Give you love that you need Who will? I will When the whole world turns against you Ain't no lie Don't you know that I will stand up for you No matter what you're goin through I'm still on your side Anytime, day or night Don't care if it's wrong or right I'm still on your side You wanna run, you wanna break free Well what you want ain't what you need Can't you see that I care I know I'm hard on you sometimes But when you're lookin for the things you can't find Don't you know who'll be there Who will? I will When it's more than you can handle Ain't no lie Don't you know that I will stand up for you No matter what you're goin through I'm still on your side Anytime, day or night Don't care if it's wrong or right I'm still on your side I'll be there I'll be there when you need me I won't let you go There's nothing I won't do I'll be there you know I will stand up for you No matter what you're goin through I'm still on your side Anytime, day or night Don't care if it's wrong or right I'm still on your side. I just was bored and looked up some old songs i like.. listen to them.. will it help you understand hun?? 2 comments|post comment

[03 Feb 2005|01:02am] My Boo post comment

[03 Feb 2005|12:58am] [ mood | ..?? not sure? ] Back Here - Lyrics - BBMak Baby set me free from this misery I can't take it no more Since you ran away, nothing's been the same Don't know what I'm living for Here I am, so alone And there's nothing in this world I can do Until you're back here baby Miss you, want you, need you so Until you're back here baby, yeah There's a feeling inside I want you to know You are the one and I can't let you go So I told you lies, even made you cry Baby I was so wrong Girl I promise you, now my love is true This is where my heart belongs Cuz here I am, so alone And there's nothing in this world I can do (repeat chorus) And I wonder- Are you thinkin of me* Cuz I'm thinkin of you.:* And I wonder-- Are you ever coming back in my life...?? Cuz here I am.. so alone? And there's nothing in this world I can do.. Until you're back here baby Miss you, want you, need you so Until you're back here baby, yeah There's a feeling inside I want you to know You are the one and I can't let you go .. I love you. post comment

[03 Feb 2005|12:42am] Album: Encore (2004) Song: Spend Some Time [Eminem] If there's any bitches in this room Then there's somethin I gotta say For all the fools Who fell for the first Girl who comes their way I been down that road, and now I'm back Sittin on square one Tryin to pick myself up, Where I started from.. [Obie] I never woulda thought that I'd see you out of control Even though, my penis was deep down in your hole You should know between us we was like makes ??? Nothing could intervene us especially no hos You was more so the shalon type I chose To more shows, haunted you nights I suppose that's how it goes, With time spent emotion grows In the beginning friends, we decided to roll So who's responsible when you get excited, explode And Obie's grinning, then you invite that Obie's cold But bitches they gon' talk, *****s they gon' hate We established this way before we became mates So what's required is that you chill with all that fire Get your desire when I retire [Chorus] {Girl singing} Spend some time with me... {Eminem} I never thought that I'd find someone to be mine Lord knows I was right cause you just crossed the line.. {Girl singing} Spend some time with me... [Eminem] I used to say I never met a girl like you before Still ain't got a fuckin clue as to who you truly are Almost went as far as introducing you to my daughters Till' you went as far as goin and snoopin through my drawers Now I just feel stupid for the loop that you threw me for Can't believe I almost flew the coop for some stupid whore You used to say all you wanted was for me to be yours All I ever wanted from you was a few booty calls If you re-call I used to treat you like a groupie broad When we fucked I refused to even take my ***elry off But it through me off the first time I called and you blew me off It was a shock, it struck me as odd but it turned me on You started gettin moody on me pretty soon we'd argue And the ruder you got, the more beautiful you got to me And who'd even knew that, who would of even thought possibly Cupid could shoot another one of them god-damned darts at me It's true that I got shot in the heart But when someone seems too good to be true, they usually are But see, when you're in it it's to hard to see Till' you pull up and see some other dudes car parked And reach up under your seat as your heart starts to beat Before you make a decision that's life altering And just as you haul and you turn and you start to leave You hear them words echoing almost haunting That's haunting.. [Chorus] {Girl singing} Spend some time with me... {Eminem} I never thought that I'd find someone to be mine Lord knows I was right cause you just crossed the line.. {Girl singing} Spend some time with me... [Stat Quo] (Yeah right bitch, Spend time with my dick) In most cases Stats attitude is fuck a bitch My only motive is to get head and fuck a bitch But you was different thought we shared a ??? Even held your hand in public We suffering because of this Shorty on some whole nother other shit Tryin to play slick, thinkin I'm gonna trick off rip I'll admit, I was caught in the mix dyin to commit Feed you the best of me I should have fed you piss(?) We started off closer than close, But who could have predicted to know your triflin ways Would of stopped our growth And the final result, back in that same boat I ask myself do I love these hos? NOPE! [50 Cent] Em introduced us 50 this is Tonya, Tonya this is 50 Then slid off and left her to kick it with me I complimented her, I said you had very nice lips With my imagination, I could see her suckin my dick We played the phone game, a week later shit changed fast Had her comin over in a cab to give me some ass Downtown Manhattan on the balcony stare at the skyline Penthouse full of imported shit, you know how I grind She got to talkin, talkin like a oppourtunist too Why talk when suckin my dick is the real carrer move? Says she's an inspiring actress she do videos for practice Yeah, Yeah, now how many times I heard that shit.. [Chorus] {Girl singing} Spend some time with me... {Eminem} I never thought that I'd find someone to be mine Lord knows I was right cause you just crossed the line.. {Girl singing} Spend some time with me... GOOD SONG! post comment

[03 Feb 2005|12:04am] im home and its 12:00 talked to ppl online.. well i went to school and talked to the councler.. good news.. i have 19.00 credits.. plus the class's from now untill april it will make 21.00 credits. Drivers lisence .50 credit Silas work Exp. .50 credit Then i graduate in april! YAY! well school was good. and spendin time with crystal lately was good. Jimmys leavin soon. Court soon. Fight between crystal, meg, tajia and me last night I got slapped! by crystal. then a big hug and an big "Im Sorry" later on after the incident. Tajia said sum hoe shit, and i lost all respect for her. im going to bed. gotta go out to lunch wit crystal tomm. So night night, write in hur later -Dean I love Crystal Anne Marie Vogt post comment

[01 Feb 2005|12:05am] [ mood | HaPpy aS heLl ] well lets see, im at crystals now.. Shes sleeping on the couch and i decided to update. The last 2 days have been amazing.. i have spent the night at crystals both nights and spent alot of time with her, and i love it.. we talked alot and solved many things.. and maybe none of this was a mistake besides listening to other ppl besides her. i love her, and she actually does care about me. im so happy when im with her, and i think that things might turn out good with us. im so happy now.. and her and erica fixed thier problems.. so everything is better. things might turn out alright.. i still have sum things to take care of.. but i think everything is gettin alot better for me. im tired and cant talk much cause i wanna go to sleep.. so i will update again sum other time.. for all you that told me to stick with her and just give her time.. thanks, cause it was alot of help. and for everyone thats been there for me thanks alot to you also. well ima go lay down w/ her and fall asleep. lunch tomm. with meg. tajia, CRYSTAL, erica and ashlee then plans for tommarow night. -bye bye, -dean post comment

[31 Jan 2005|06:25pm] I LOVE CRYSTAL ANN MARIE VOGT!!!!! SOOO MUCH!! 1 comment|post comment

[30 Jan 2005|08:26pm] i am so inlove with you. post comment

boring sunday. [30 Jan 2005|08:20pm] [ mood | Still hopeing.. ] well what a wonderful sunday, i woke up at 5:30 p.m today. i have no plans or anything so im just sittin at home. i just got out of the shower.. i talked to crystal online and im trying to explain everything to her, but like always she had to leave in the middle of the conversation cause Dmitry and sam and sum other ppl arrived at her house. So i cant tell her anything b.c there over and she cannot talk to me when they are there for sum reason. I dont think she wants ppl knowin that shes still talking to me. but i dont kno, im trying to let her kno how i feel and shit to see if she understands how i feel, or even if she cares. im waiting for her to call me to talk to me when they leave her house, untill then.. im watching some tv and laying down.. i only have one more Newport* im going to die! i might b back in hur tonight so bye post comment

[30 Jan 2005|07:25am] Usher- You remind me. Yo, I ain't seeing you in a minute, but I got something to tell ya, listen. See the thing about you that caught my eye Is the same thing that makes me change my mind Kinda hard to explain, but girl, I'll try, You need to sit down this may take a while See this girl, she sorta looks just like you She even smiles just the way you do So innocent she seemed but I was fooled I'm reminded when I look at you. You remind me of a girl, that I once knew. See her face whenever I, I look at you. You won't believe all of the things she put me through. This is why I just can't get with you. Thought that she was the one for me, Til I found out she was on her creep, Oh, she was sexing everyone, but me. This is why we could never be. You remind me of a girl, that I once knew. See her face whenever I, I look at you. You won't believe all of the things she put me through. This is why I just can't get with you. I know it's so unfair to you, That I relate her ignorance to you. Wish I knew, wish I knew how to separate the two You remind me, whoa... You remind me of a girl, that I once knew. See her face whenever I, I look at you. You won't believe all of the things she put me through. This is why I just can't get with you. You remind me of a girl, that I once knew. See her face whenever I, I look at you. You won't believe all of the things she put me through. This is why I just can't get with you. .. you kno that ur inlove when after knowing that shes over you.. and talkin to other guys.. your the one that cannot even think about looking at another gurl. As bad as you want to, you cant because all you think about, is her. And even when your positive that she is not going to come back to you.. you sit a wait, hopein she will eventually. And as much as you hate the fact that she isnt inlove with you.. you still never think about not loving her. You know that your inlove when, even if she put you through more bullshit then ever, you can never be upset with you. you can play it off as you dont care what she does.. but when you see her with another man.. you still cannot even look at another girl. All you do is pay attention to her, hoping that she notices that you still care. When ur inlove, you have to feel comftorable talking to them about anything, trust them with anything in the world. you should be able to be yourself and not feel like your supposed to be better than you are. you think about her all the time, weither your alone, with your boys or with anyone.. u think about her all the time. you want to call her to see how shes doing, to hear her voice. and every night, you wait up.. even knowing she isnt going to call you.. hopeing that her name will be on the caller ID when the phone rings. When you wake up and the first think that comes to your mind is her.. thats when you know it. And if your boys ask you.. could you get with another gurl.. and you can say NO! then you kno that you are inlove. I cant even think of being with other gurl. Even knowing that you dont care, i try to convice myself that you do. It sucks knowing that u will never feel the way for me that i do for you. And it sucks seeing you with another guy and knowing that you dont care for how i feel. The worst part is.. i still wish that guy was me. .. i love you post comment

The normal saturday. [30 Jan 2005|05:34am] Today i, -Sat at home and hung out with allen, dorrian, aj, eric.. and sum other ppl came over.. Ashley, sam, and jimmy. -Later in the day we made sum stops to bk and 711 about 20 times.. -Boris was cummin over to play games with aj and beat him in need for speed undergoing 2.. when he got here, jason and megan came to chill too.. and then Dane, greg and corey came by with ashley flemmin and sum other ppl and started talking shit.. so like any random person would do.. jason started talking shit and braught a bat out the car.. they drove by again and stoped a couple houses away talking shit.. so then they drop there hat as there talking shit.. so they come back to get it.. corey started fuckin around talkin shit, we all took it personal.. and we talked shit back so corey said.. alright, we will brb. so i called jimmy and let him kno about this since he hates greg anyways and has beef cause greg fucked with the family in the past.. so jimmy and sam, and crystal came over.. then tommy showed up cause Jason called him.. so eventually ppl started pullin up.. In front of my house was.. Sam, jimmy, dorrian, allen, aj, eric, me, tommy, jason, boris, crystal, megaan, liz, julie, kara and so on a couple others.. well then, we waited. they pulled up around the corner and parked.. and corey came and talked shit out.. the fight never happend cause corey was ther.. and nun of us have a problem w/ him.. hes kewl as hell. - so then tommy, jason, ashley, boris and megan came inside and fucked around downstairs.. then me, jason and boris went to go and pick up lace, then we met up with tommy and meg and went to julies.. alot of ppl showed up.. dustin, stevo, chuck and them stopped by.. yuri and josh were there.. arthur stoped by and sum others.. then i stayed there, drank, took rid. and chilled w/ them till about 5:30 then came home.. im here wit allen, dorrian, aj and eric and im juss fuckin around.. not tired as hell and im bored! its pathetic how some ppl dont give 2 shits about ppl feelings. They can hurt me, and not care at all about how i feel. and my brother, i expected better from him.. hes family. and her, i thought she was better. i shouldnt have fallen inlove with her, i wouldnt make that mistake again if i had the choice, but i dont. bye post comment

[29 Jan 2005|05:54pm] [ mood | I NEED FOOD! ] last night, chilled w/ dorrian, allen, aj, jimmy and sam.. chilled then took sam home and walked back here.. didnt do much last night.. then i came here and chilled till like 4 and fell asleep. now im chillin w/ dorrian, allen, eric, aj and sum ppl. and we r trying to go chill with sum ppl. not sure whats going on thought for tonight. im done playing games and i made that final and that made everything better for me. im going to chill with sum ppl go to a party or club and take sum aderal to feel a little better. lol i will write in hur later when im fucked up. aight nigga! bye post comment

[28 Jan 2005|03:33pm] [ mood | Pissed! i have been ditchED! ] Hiii. Woke up at 12, went out to eat at pondersosa wit jimmy and boris then got aj and eric from school and im chillin at home. See, i was right.. People arent hanging out with me because Crystal. And that pisses me off.. i had plans with megan for like 2 weeks to go to a party with chinker and we agreed yesterday that we would go to a party tonight but then her and Crystal talked and are cool. And she expects me to hang out with Crystal? fuck that. thats sum hoe ass shit. Im so mad at her for that.. shes ditching me now and hanging out with her.. so i dont kno what im doing today. - Chinker wants me and sum ppl to come to his party with his friends. - Dustin has the house to himself and he wants me to join him and bring some ppl to his house to get drunk and fuck around. - Alan wants to chill with sum of his friends. - Sum gurls i havent seen for a long time from birmingham want to meet up and go see a movie or sumthing. - And my x gurlfriend from forever ago.. Katie wants to see me a little later tonight. - And i want to hang out with someone.. but i dont kno if she wants to hang out with me cause shes still upset with her x and i dont think she likes talking to me about him. So i dont kno whats going on!! i was ditched but i still have sum things to do, but im not sure what ima follow thru w/. but im gunno go shower and pick out what ima wear tonight then fuck around with sum friends. ttyl bye Children post comment

[28 Jan 2005|04:25am] [ mood | Lonely ] Omg, Valentines day is comeing up!?! what am i going to do!? Im going to be alone, on valentines day! This makes me scared! this sucks! Lonely. :( post comment

Does anyone ever read these.? [28 Jan 2005|03:27am] [ mood | dull - quiet- lazy-coming down ] How many ppl read this.. if you read then comment with the answers.. cause i doubt many ppl read this. But answer all questions and post anonymous. - Do you hate being Alone - - Do you hate being Single - - Do you have a Crush - - Are you inlove - - tell me 2 Secrets - - How Close am i to you - - How long have i known you - - Pick the closest to the last time we hung out.--- 1. within a week 2. within a month 3. within 3 months 4. its been a long time  This or That!! - gold or silver - blue or red - Mcdonalds or Wendys - White Castle or Bk - Prep or Jock - Thug or Punk - Black or White - Car or Truck - Girl or Guy - Spagetti or Mac N Cheese - Movies or Mall - Date at Bk or Date at Resturaunt - Basketball or football BASICS *Name : *Age : *Nicknames : *Birthday : *School : *Sports/Hobbies : *Describe your hair : *Describe your eyes : *Female or male : *Height : *Glasses or Contacts : *Braces : *Race : *Nationality : *Piercings : FAVORITES *Color : *Food : *Meal : *Music : *Band/Artist : *Song : *Store : *Number : *Movie : *Tv Show : *Day of the week : *Month of the year : *Sport : *Candy : *Ice Cream Flavor : *Beverage : *Fast Food Place : *Sit down resturaut : LOVE LIFE  *Sexual Preference : *Boyfriend : *Crush : somewhat *Longest Relashionship : *Do you ever miss your ex : *How long was the relationship with the ex you miss? : *How long have u crushed on that special someone : *If you could spend the rest of your life with anybody you personally know, who would u choose: HAVE YOU EVER *Smoked pot : *Done drugs : *Snuck out of your house : *Bungee jumped : *Thrown up at school : *Been called a slut : *Been called a bitch: *Been called a pussy: *Been called a fag : *Killed a person : *Hurt somebody emotionally intentionally : *Hurt somebody physically intentionally : *Gotten arrested : *Lied to your parents: *Prayed : *Lost somebody you loved : FRIENDS *Your best friend(s): *Your worst enemy(s): *Name all the best friends you've had in your life: *Funniest : *Trustworthiest : *Most fun to hang out with : *Biggest flirt : *Sluttiest : dono IN THE PAST 24 HOURS *Have you showered : *Eaten : *Cried : * Kissed someone : *Hugged anybody : *Had sex : *Talked to your crush : *Talked to your boyfriend: *Left your house : *Listened to music : *Talked on the phone : LAST *clothes : *Food : *IM’s : *Thoughts : *Beverage : *Music : *Phone call : ARE YOU *Tired : *Wide awake : *Sweet : *Trustworthy : *Pretty : *Funny : *Cool : *Slutty : *Sporty : *Dumb : *Smart : Have you ever liked me more than a friend? Make sure to answer all the questions 1by1 and if u dont want to leave ur name then u can post anonymous.. but make sure to do this quiz, i need to see how many ppl actually read this, cause i dont think there is more than 2 or 3 ppl. 3 comments|post comment

THE IM TALKING ALOT ABOUT DUMB SHIT ENTRY CAUSE NO ONE IS TALKING TO ME ON THE PHONE SO IM WRITING!! [27 Jan 2005|11:10pm] [ mood | ENERGETIC. AWAKE. TALKATIVE. ] This is pointless and theres not much that means anything so if ur reading it then u dont need to be, cause its nuthing important. well today, i went and hung out with lacie, and her mom chilled with us for a lil and lacie talked shit to everyone on my buddy list and her and my mom had a blast. She was tellin everyone that i was Gay, Pregnate and shit and tellin everyone that i juss came out the closet and that i was afraid of hurting my gurlfriends feelings and gettin dumped.. lol it was funny. then Her lil sister was crazy juss fooling around and beatin my ass for a while. After sumtime juss chillin with lacie, Crystal called up all pissed that i was hanging out with lacie, and thats pathetic, maybe me and lacie have a past but that doesnt mean that we cannot be friends and spend sum time. Juss like i said a while back, i cant even hang out with friends without Crystal gettin mad at me, she doesnt trust me at all. Well now, i lost my best friend ever. i have known Crystal since like First grade and now we are fighting and our friendship is over just b.c she told me how she felt for me and i told her how i felt for her and now everything is fucked up. i rushed into a relationship with her, but she also wanted to get into one right away also, she didnt want to wait neither. and juss b.c she wasnt ready and i didnt wait for her to be ready for a relationship and cause she didnt want to wait.. the relationship ended and then drama evolved from our break up and now.. we cant even be friends.. i hate relationships.. after what happend with me and lacie it took forever for us to be able to hang out again, and it still is wierd when we hang out.. and i dont want that with crystal too.. i juss wish that it was easier than that.. i wish that ppl could try going out and if it doesnt work then just end it and be friends after, but its not like that. cause when u break up.. feelings are still there, and it makes the friendship awkward. but i have known Crystal for so long and i have been able to tell her everything and trust her with anything i say.. and i dont want to lose that. but no its gotten bad. i see her with someone and i start to feel like shit.. and she finds out that i hang out with another gurl.. expesially my x gurlfriend and then she gets upset with me.. and then we just end up fighting even more. and i dont like fighting with her, because i want to stay friends with her untill the end. and i dont want to be enemys with her.. cause if im not friends with her.. and my boy sam goes to hang out with her.. or jimmy or Megan, Tajia or any other friends of mine, i dont want to not be able to go just cause we dont get along. i want to be able to still have a good time with my friends and to forget what happend in the past. i just want to start all over and leave the feelings and drama and bullshit behind. i want to be able to hang out with friends. and my x gurlfriends with out anyone getting mad. i want to start all over. The reason that i fuck up in relationships.. is because i always jump into them to fast, i never take the time to chill and get to know the person and to figure out if it is exactly what i want. And the reason i jump into relationships all the time.. is because im a lonely person... i hate being alone more than anything in the world! i love haveing someone with me, being with someone and saying there mine. Because i love haveing the comfort and love from another person.. and friends dont give u the love that u get from another person ur in a relationship with.. when ur not in a relationship.. there is no sweet talking, cuddleing, warmth, or anything like that. and i love to have that all the time.. and thats why i jump into relationships without slowly working together to make it work. and then when it doesnt work, i blame it on the other person. and i act like none of it was my fault. Im sick of not being able to hang out with all my friends. i dont like just hanging out with 3 of my friends everyday, all the time.. i like to go around to all my friends and spend time with all of them and have a good time. im sick of hanging out with friends and it always being full of drama, and ppl crying and all sad. im sick of being sad for dumb reasons and ruining everyones week end.. Megan and Tajia. they helped me out when i needed them to, they were there for me when i needed another hand. or some advice, or a person to hold on to.. and i did fuck there week end up and i fucked there night up.. b.c i made everyone sad and we didnt have a good time.. it was just drama drama, drama.. but they were still always there for me.. they never left me untill i felt better. But if they did.. i wouldnt be upset with them.. because i put them thru sum shit that they shouldnt have even went thru.. they sat there for ever with me listening to me bitch about shit. Im done bitching. im done crying. im done losing frineds for stupid reasons, and im done with Drama! Shit talking! Rumors.. im dont with everything. im going to hang out with friends and have a good time.. and if anyone doesnt want to be friends with me. then dont tell me, dont talk shit, dont spread rumors, just leave me alone, or be my friend. and i kno theres prolly no one that actually reads this.. but if there is.. i feel sorry for you, ur sittin here listening to me bitch! and i dont mean to bitch or complain.. but i like doing this.. i like writing it down, because i do this when i have noone to talk to, i let everything out and it makes me feel better. is there anyone reading this? lol anyways, my brother just got home.. sam dropped him off, and u kno what pisses me off more than anything.. the cops. sam and jimmy and me and tajia did have a reason for gettin pulled over, cause when the shit happen when nick got fucked up by jimmy. they pulled us over and arrested jimmy for drivin and shit, and got tajia for drinking.. but stilll they have no reason for pullin us over everytime we pass them.. lately, for no reason and just for seeing sams truck.. they pull him over to fuck with us.. now we have to watch out and be carefull just cause the cops are dicks and love fucking with us.. jimmy did nuthing wrong.. 1 day he was driving to work, and did nuthing illegal, but when the cop found out that it was jimmy, he pulled him over and fucked him over and arrested him. 2 days in a row jimmy got arrested. and then i get fucked over for drugs that werent even on me and werent even mine!! and now they fuck with us all the time.. juss b/c we are the akers and cause sam is our boy. Are they ever going to leave us alone.. quit fucking with us just cause our last name? its bullshit! my older brother david did sum shit in the past that gave us a bad last name, and ever since then.. we have been fucked with and i hate it. i am not even that bad of a kid. i dont do fucked up shit, but i still get fucked with all the time. That is why i want to move away from this, all the drama. i just want to excape from everything. move somewhere, make new friends.. be just like everyone else. and live like a normal person. My parents live a horrible life, with there bad last name, and there kids gettin fucked for shit that they had nuthing to do with. My mom and dad hate it here, and they think that all this is happening cause them. they think that they didnt raise us good. and that we are bad kids cause they didnt teach us any better. but it has nuthing to do with them. The Adopted us, and treated us good. we were raised good and everything. What we do, is our mistakes. And they live horrible lives because of us (Me and the rest of the family). I have made mistakes and gotten into trouble and thats my fault.. my parents couldnt have done anything to prevent that. at times i believe that my parents could have been more Strict and protective, but then again.. if they were then i would never learn how to live life and face everything on my own. i made mistakes and i have learned from them.. and if they were more strict then i dont think i would have made the mistakes i did. and im glad i messed up. cause now i kno what i have to do to not make the mistake again. Jimmy messed up and made mistakes too, and he did 7 years in lock-up for that. and he has changed alot. when he went away, he didnt have much for a heart. he didnt care that much about anyone but himself. and ppl talk bad about him alot sayin hes an asshole and shit, but he did change, and he can be a great person. Hes not doing much with his life and all, cause he made mistakes. But look at how good he was when it came to his love-life. He treated Kasey like Gold. he did everything he possibly could to make her happy. He always treated her with respect and he never would think about ever hurting her.. ppl talk shit about how he doesnt have anywhere to live and doesnt have a nice car and doesnt even have that many friends.. well.. he gave everything up for kasey. He had a Great house in lancing and he lived with some friends and he had a great ass job doing (construction), he always had money, he always dressed nice and looked good. He always had new clothes, shoes. Jewlery, and he had a nice car (1999) Malibu and his life was set. But the thing was, he was lonely. Then he visited our house and spent sumtime with us when he was off work, and he met Kasey agian through us.. and started to get to kno her.. and they spent time together and everything was perfect. But he had to decide to stay with her, or keep everything he has got in lancing, and because the way he felt for her, he picked her! they were perfect together. they were the perfect couple. They fell inlove with eachother and always were together at all times, he missed work to spend time with her, and lost his job. and then he was robbed at home and lost all his nice jewlery and clothes and all his Expensive belongings. Then he stayed in Dmitrys house, and Dustins to be close to Kasey, and he lost his House and car. He lost everything to be with her. And right there is a point that i have been trying to make.. ppl make mistakes. i cannot say that it was much of a bad mistake, because when he was with her, it was the happiest time of his life, he was always happy with her. He can be a dick, but thats when he needs to be. he doenst like that many ppl, but thats because alot of ppl talk shit about the akers, or me and aj. and ppl talk shit about Kasey. and then when he is a dick. Hes a good person untill ppl start talkin about His BabyGurl or about his family. I dont kno many ppl that he has a problem with for any other reason then messin with kasey or his family. And thats why i dont understand why ppl talk shit about jimmy. Then there is also my lil brother (Aj) Hes as anyone can say, a really great person. Hes a good kid. He doesnt get into any trouble unless its little shit like being out past curfue or sumthing like that. and hes the one in the family that hasent done anything illegal or stupid that he would regret later in life besides the fact of drinking some liquor with me and my brother. Aj is the one in the family with the biggest heart. and hes the one that takes everything offensivly and serious. He gets offended really easy. and thats the thing aj hates the most, the fact that my parents think its thier fault that we have a bad name. i do love my mom and dad like no other, but at times i do treat them very pourly, and show plenty of disrespect. And jimmy loves my mom, but still at times doesnt appreciate everything shes done for him. but aj on the other hand, he never treats my parents bad. hes always the one tellin them how great they are to us.. and if it wasnt for him being good all the time, and if he made mistakes like me and my other brothers have made.. then i think that my parents wouldnt even be here right now. I feel so bad for everything we put our parents thru, cause my dads blood pressure is getting really high, and hes the one out working his ass off for money for us to waste. and then we have my mom, with a bad heart, and we also have her working cause she had to get a job to make some more money for us. And we are the healthy ones in the family and still livein off our parents and being lazy. I was stupid and lost my job to hang out with friends. and now im depending on my mom untill i find another job. and my mom isnt going to be able to do the 10-20 dollars a day thing anymore.. with food and Cigarettes.. i need to get a job at least to have sum lil spending money. I need to get my shit straight. still missing school. i didnt go to school today, i skipped to hang out with lacie and to do sumthing to put a smile on my face. i need to get everything fixed. i gotta go to school from now on, i need to go get the licence after the court shit (if i dont get locked up). and i need to get the job for my Car plates and insurance and then a lil gas money also. I need to quit sobbing over my social life and worrie about myself and my future a little more, cause im still young and i think i have plenty more relationships and friendships down the line. I just need to get it together and do it. and stop sayin it and take action. Ok, my brother just walked into the kitchen and i stopped writing and looked at the clock and noticed it is like 2 and i have been writing forever! about bullshit. its the ADERAL! its makeing me say everything. and i have smoked at least 7 cigarettes in an hour.. thats bad.. i was doing good today. i left my smokes at home when i went to lacies cause i knew she wouldnt want me to smoke and i didnt want to upset her. so like around 6 i went to the bowling ally with lacie and JANE! (who i havent seen in forever and i love!) and then jane gave me a cig. and i smoked it and then another one like 1 hours later. so i had 2 almost the whole day, then at like 8:30 i had 2 aderal and then.. BANG! it hit me and i started smokeing alot. - i need to quit bad! - Jane- it was nice hanging out with u and lace, ur a sweet person and dont ever think ur not good enouph or pretty enouph for him, ur a great person and ur beautiful. he made the mistake and im pretty sure he will come back and be with you. and if he doesnt hun, thats his loss. Cause u'r still young and you never kno what can happen! Good luck hun! Lacie- Im sry about the whole Tommy and Sam thing, dont worry about anything, shes a slut and i dont even think tommy would get with her. he just went to the arcade think w/ her. dont worry. Lace, i cannot give you advice or anything on this relationship, cause as u can tell im a fuck up with it comes to mine.. but let him know how u feel. tell him everything and if he wants to be with you, he will. but dont let him hurt you.. if u think ur going to get hurt again. try and let him go. (Thats all i can say, cause i cannot sit here and give u advice. Cause i might fuck up ur relationships like i did mine). Just be carefull. .. i went downstairs to get the phone cause ashlee called.. and she was talking about the drama lately. and about how her mom was talkin about Crystal and the Shit talking that Erica was saying about Crystal and me. and all this other shit. and damn. why cant people just stop talking shit and keep everything to themselves.. do they have to talk shit about ppl? does it make them feel better or sumthing? i hate that. For Example: (no names) #1 is mad at #2 because #2 is talking to #1's Boyfriend alot and flirting with eachother and jking around.. But #1 and #2 are really good friends, but they get in a fight over this little thing, well then #1 goes tellin everyone that #2 is a slut and a bitch and a skank. but #2 never did anything to deserve it. right there, people are friends, fight over sumthing pathetic.. and then friendship is over cause louisy SHIT TALKING! its fucked up. i kno i shit talk sumtimes.. everyone does. but why do we do it? its pointless and it just messes everything up more. i think the reason most rumors and shit talking starts is because Ignorant people. and because there are some ppl that love drama, and love to mess with ppl and hurt ppl and ruin there lives.. if there is someone out there that can ruin someones like and not care, or take all there friends away and make their lives a living hell.. and not care.. then they have fucking issues.. Cause i was hanging out with sum1 the other day and they found out that one of there friends called em' a slut and she said that she was going to take all her friends away and ruin her life just cause we was called a slut. God damn! weither ur a slut or not.. ur a fucking bitch for not caring about takin sum1s life away, damn. im talking to boris online. and its 2:30 or sumthin and im still writin in here.. and im writin about the dumbest shit ever.. but i like doing it. cause its keeping me doing sumthing. im enjoying this.. im not juss sittin here doing nuthing.. im talking about everything to everyone that reads.. which is prolly stupid. but im bored and on aderal and this is what i do when im on it! i dont kno what im doing tomm.. i want to go to lunch. sam has work tho.. and i think that megan and Tajia are with Crystal and i Definatly cannot see her anytime soon, i need sum time away. i cant deal with all that right now. the thing i hate so much! if i want to be with sum1 and they dont want to be with me.. and then i go hang out with sum1 that i used to date.. thats not bad is it? no.. but i get bitched at and lost the person i wanted most, just for hanging out with a friend. it sucks.. Then she says that i fucked up? all i did was hang out with a friend.. juss like she was doing at that same exact second. hanging out with Sam, Jimmy, Angela and Addie.. so she can hang out with her friends and everythings fine.. but i hang out with my friend and i supposibly fucked it up? SHE DID THE SAME THING I DID! HOW AM I THE ONE THAT WAS WRONG!? I think that she was just trying to find an easy excuse to end everything. And the thing that upsets me the most is the fact that, while im sittin here being upset that we arent together or that we arent even friends.. she doesnt care. when she said its over, i tryed to call her and talk to her and tell her i wanted to be with her. but i told her that we werent friends and she didnt make a noise, didnt say wait, or nuthing. she just got off the phone and went and hung out with her friends and acted like nuthing happend. But now i kno that i didnt mean much to her to begin with. Im just upset that i made the mistake of falling for her, when at the end i knew i was going to be the one to get screw'd. It is hard to be friends with sum1 that u love, cause when u see them.. its not like it used to be.. things change when u switch from friends to a couple. and it never comes back. Things will never be the same. Now how and i going to deal with seeing her, in someone elses arms? It will hurt, but it will just help me understand, im not the one she wants nor needs and it would just hurt for a while, or untill the feelings pass. Everytime im in a good mood and i see her, im not. Everytime i think of her i get depressed. Everytime she comes over with my friends, i have to turn my head. How come right when i see her face to face, i feel week. why cant i just stop feeling for ppl when they dump me.. cause that is how i am.. i get hooked on to ppl easily. and then i cant get over them. And the shitiest thing is that.. i fall for them, then they dump me. y cant they just end it before i become hooked onto them. because since we were friends before and cause we hang out with the same ppl.. when i hang out with my friends, i will see her. i will have to be around her and deal with the feelings. Its hard. Cause when i saw her with sam a while back when she dumped me and i found out what she did with her X.. when they came to my house to pick me up.. i didnt kno she was in the car.. and he opened the door and told me to get in. they asked me to get in right next to Crystal. and when i noticed she was there.. i looked her into the eyes and turned around and walked away.. i couldnt deal with it.. i couldnt look at her without being hurt. When i saw her dull face she mad when she looked at me.. it was telling me that she didnt care about what happend at all.. like it doesnt matter that we broke up. i was the reck and she thought of it as, u kno, w/e we went out.. it didnt work now lets be friends agian. And i couldnt do that. cause its totally changed. For me just to be close to her and so she doesnt think of me as an anemy and juss so i can become as much of a friend as possible agian. for her, i will act like everything is alright, i will hold everything in and hang out with her.. i will joke and laugh and pretend that it never happend. we will have a fake friendship. cause i cant just be friends with her and say everythings alright again. cause i would be lieing. cause it will never be alright, and never be the same.. our relationship demolished our friendship. and im so pissed b.c our friendship was so damn amazing. she was my best friend! and now, shes an ex gurlfriend. The friendships Gone, and i dont think she will ever come back to the relationship, so either way.. i dont get anything i want. i lost a friend and a gurlfriend. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM BORED!!!!! AND IM TALKING ABOUT THIS ON ADERAL AND I KNO IM SAYIN STUPID SHIT, CAUSE I LOOKED UP AT THE SHIT I SAID.. AND SOME SHIT DONT EVEN MAKE SINCE AND THEN SOME SHIT I DONT EVEN THINK I SHOULD HAVE WROTE IN HERE.. BUT WHATEVER.. THIS ENTRY WILL BE THE ONE I REMEMBER AS, THE TIME I WROTE EVERYTHING FOR NO REASON, CAUSE I WAS ON ADERAL. CAUSE DAMN.. I WROTE SUM SHIT, THAT I WOULD NEVER EVEN TELL MOST PPL. AND ALOT OF PPL CAN COME IN HERE, AND READ IT.. AND THAT CAN START SHIT TALKING.. ABOUT ME.. AND THEN PPL R GOING TO SAY THINGS ABOUT ME.. AND THEN ,,, AND THEN ,,, OK IM GOING TO GO WATCH TV AND CALL PPL TO TALK TO THEM. CAUSE IM BORED AND I NEED SUM1 TO TALK TO. CAUSE IM SAYIN STUPID SHIT IN THIS LIVE JOURNAL AND I NEED TO GET OUT BEFORE I SAY ANY OTHER STUPID SHIT.. AND IF I SAID ANYTHING MEAN TO ANYONE OUT THERE, THEN IM SORRY, IM JUSS TALKING ALOT AND SUM STUFF I DONT MEAN TO SAY. ONE THING I WILL NEVER DO.. TAKE ADERAL WHEN IM IN THIS RELATIONSHIP SITUATION CAUSE I THINK ME WRITIN ALL THIS IS GOING TO MAKE THINGS WORSE.. CRYSTAL HATES ME ENOUPH AND I THINK I FUCKED SHIT UP EVEN MORE.. I ALREADY LOST HER IN THE RELATIONSHIP. AND THEN AS A FRIEND.. AND NOW SHES GOING TO HATE ME.. I WOULD JUST DELETE THIS JUST SO I DONT SAY ANYTHING STUPID.. CAUSE I DONT WANT TO LOOK AND READ THRU ALL THIS TO SEE IF I PUT ANYTHING STUPID.. BUT THEN AGAIN, I DONT WANT TO DELETE THIS, CAUSE ALL THIS WOULD HAVE BEEN A WASTE OF TIME! WHAT IS IT?, HOW COME AFTER I KNO SHE DOESNT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME AND HATES ME.. HOW COME I CANT WAIT UNTILL I SEE HER AGAIN! OR HOW COME I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT THE OTHER DAY WHEN I TOLD HER THAT WHEN SHE KNOWS WHAT SHE WANTS, THEN TO GIVE ME A CALL.. Y DO I FIND MYSELF UP AND WAITING FOR HER CALL? HERE I GO AGAIN TALKING NON STOP. IM LEAVEING NOW.. SO I DONT KEEP DRAGING THIS ON. IM OUT. SRY NO MORE BULLSHIT DRAMA, GAY STUFF THAT DEAN HAS TO SAY FOR U TO READ! BUT NOW THAT U ARE DONE, NOW DO U UNDERSTAND!! MY LIFE IS A LIVEIN HELL. I WANNA JUST RUN LIKE JIMMY! START NEW IN COLORADO W/ HIM! THERES A DECISION I HAVE TO MAKE, RUN AND START ALL OVER AND WORK THERE. OR FINISH HIGHSCHOOL THEN PLAN THE FUTURE.. OMG, HERE I GO AGAIN, KEEP TALKING AND TALKING.. GOODBYE AND GOODNIGHT. ITS 3:00 UR ALL IN BED! AND IM NOT. I CANT SLEEP. AND MEGAN AND THEM WONT CALL ME BACK. I THINK THEY MIGHT BE SLEEPING! AHH IM UPSET WITH THEM BITCHES! LOL JP NO SHITTALKING! BYE BYE SERIOUSLY, IF U READ ALL THE SHIT THAT I SAID.. THEN POST A COMMENT SO I CAN COMMENT BACK AND CALL U A FUCKING RETARD FOR ACTUALLY READING ALL THIS SHIT.. NUTHING IMPORTANT AT ALL. ITS JUST SHIT ON MY MIND THATS PUT ON A LIL SCREEN CALLED A MONITOR AND UR READING IT. BUT MAYBE UR STUPID FOR READING ALL OF IT. BUT THEN AGAIN, U ARE INTERESTED IN WHAT I HAVE TO SAY. AND THAT KINDA MAKES ME HAPPY THAT EVEN THOUGH ITS ALL BULLSHIT, U ACTUALLY SPENT TIME TO READ ALL THE SHIT ON MY MIND THAT I JOTTED DOWN. PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT! <3 MUCH LOVE! I TOOK PARTS OF A SONG AND PUT IT ON AN AWAY MESSAGE, AND IM PUTTIN IT IN HERE. ITS AN AMAZING SONG! *I Wanna Know* (Joe) Its amazing how you knock me off my feet, hmm Everytime you come around me I get weak, ohh Nobody ever made me feel this way, yeah You kiss my lips and then you take my breath away, So I wanna know I wanna know what turns you on So I can be all that and more Id like to know what makes you cry So I can be the one who always makes you smile Girl he never understood what you were worth And he never took the time to make it work ,hmm (You deserve more loving, girl) Baby I'm the type of man to show concern, uhh Anyway that I can please you let me learn, yeah So I wanna know Tell me what I gotta do to please you Baby anything you say I'll do, uh Cause I only wanna make you happy From the bottom of my heart, its true Tell me what i gotta do to please you Baby anything you say I'll do, uh Cause I only wanna make you happy From the bottom of my heart, its true Ohh baby. yeah. uhhhh lol bye yall' 2 comments|post comment

hiii [27 Jan 2005|02:58pm] [ mood | drained ] hiii, i woke up at 2:30 was going to go to lunch with lacie earlier, but she ended up not wanting to go with me and juss leaving school and going home. well i stayed up all last night talkin about stupid shit in my journal cause i was fucked up. well, i have plans to go to Christina's w/ megan, tajia and my brother Aj. But Megan and Tajia havent tried to get a hold of me at all, and i dont kno where they are or what they are doing, so i dont kno what is happening with that. But i just got off the phone with lacie and she invited me over for a while to hang out, so im going to her house for a while. I dont call this ditching Megan and Tajia, b/c i cant get a hold of them and they arent getting a hold of me. bbbut.. Im off to lacies after i do a couple things. ttyl peace pimps post comment

[27 Jan 2005|02:30am] [ mood | Silent - thinkin alot ] Not much to say, but im lookin at friends journals cause im bored and im gunna let sum ppl kno whats up. - I have been slackin in school and not going. - I have Failed the last couple classes from Skipping to hang out and spend time with Crystal. - I have been kinda talking to Crystal the past like 2 weeks even though at the end she doesnt want to be with me. - I went out with an old friend to have a good time "Lacie" and ended up takin the bitch "Angela" also for sum reason, and then ended up seeing Crystal and alot of ppl up there, while i was in a fight with her. She talked to me and we kinda talked a lil shit out kinda, then she left and i was trying to spend sum time with lacie, then me and my friends got fucked over for sum gay reasons and i went to jail that night for someone elses Drugs that were found in the car. - I have a court Date on the 18th, and might get locked up depending on if they do the Finger Prints. - I have found out in the last to weeks who my true friends are, and i have found out that there arent that many ppl to trust. There is no such thing as a true friend. - I have also found out, i am always the guy that wants a relationship. and the gurl that i end up with, is never ready for a relationship.. well for everyone to kno, if ur not ready for a long-term relationship and a commitment then go away and dont even let me kno how u feel, cause im sick of falling for ppl that at the end realize that they arent ready for it.. im sick of getting fucked over. i've been hurt to many times. - My mom and dad hate me and think im a druggy! - My family i cannot trust - my mom called my X gurlfriend a Slut today and i flipped out on her. - I told my brother that i tried sumthing for my first time and he made a big deal out of it, but promised me he wouldnt say anything, but still ended up getting him in the other room and telling him. Is there any motherfuckers in the world that i would be able to trust. I used to never keep secrets ever. and no one could ever trust me.. but it is so damn different now.. i've actually changed. i knew i would, it juss had to take sum time.. and i did! i have Kept so many Secretes lately. - i have been hanging out with Crystal. Megan. Tajia. Ashlee. Sam. Jimmy. and a couple other ppl alot. but its good. cause Megan and Tajia make me happy, they are my best friends.. i can feel comftorable talking to them and i can trust them with anything. i kno when im fucked up, they get sick of me and shit cause i talk alot. but they still listen to me, and that means they care. and that is what makes them good friends. i love them for that. Then there is Crystal. we had our ups and downs lately.. is it that i like her alot? Love? Obsession? Lust? im not sure yet. but for some reason i feel so fast for her.. it was crazy, we were talking, and then a week after we started talking, she dumped him and started dateing me, 5 days later dumped me for jamie.. shit happend that fucked up everyhting. now about 2 weeks later or so on.. im still trying to figure out whats going on, she doesnt kno what she wants.. she wants me but doesnt want a bf right now, so i dont kno what to do. Crystal has been hanging out with sam... soooooo much lately and that has been bothering me.. she dont like when i hang out with any of my X's or any other friends of mine that are Females. but then again, she can go and hang out with sam everyday!! when she knows how much he wants her.. Then Sam... i have known him since about the time that he started living here, and i have always been boys with him, he has helped me when i needed his help, he was there to have my back when sumthing was going down. and he has been there for me since the day i met him, and i respect him for that. but lately everything has been changing. he has been hittin on my Xgurlfriend right infront of me.. and gettin drunk and kissing her and shit, and i kno he likes her, he told me.. and then all the flirting they both do.. it makes me feel like shit knowing that my Xgurlfriend would do that to me, and my Bestfriend as well. And if they arent fucking around with each other, then still.. if she can hang out with other ppl. then y cant i.. u kno. we talked for a while.. and figured out, that we r takin a break. i told her to come to me when she knows what she wants b.c we both kno that she doesnt kno what she wants. and i dont want to wait for her and ended up fallin harder for her and then in the end juss gettin tworn apart when she doesnt come back to me. I cannot deal with that pain anymore. - as u can see my life has sucked this last couple weeks and trust me.. i tried to do so manything to fix it but nuthing works. friendship with all my firneds are fallin apart and its gettin real hard for me to try to trust anyone anymore. and school is horrible im to lazy to attend anymore. and im going to go to jail if they dont do fingerprints, and once i win in court im going to go to jail for killing the fucker that planted the pot and shit on me. i got fucked over for sum lil bitch that wont fess up to his shit. well im going to keep talkin about dumb shit so im going to let u all go now. im a loser. lol im going to bed. im sleeping everything away. Tommarow.. i need to pick. Lunch w/ Lacie? Lunch w/ Megan and Tajia? Lunch w/ Sam and Crystak? .... UHHH NOT THIS ONE! lol Megan & Tajia (Vs.) Lacie ...hmmm not sure yet, i made plans with megan and tajia, but i do want to get close to lace so, thats tuff.. i gtg to bed its 3:00 and i have to get up to see lace for lunch. NIGHT EVERYONE! and wow, this is fun im going to update again Lacie! UR AWSOME. U HAVE BEEN SO SWEET TO ME OUT OF NOWHERE AND IM SO HAPPY THAT WE ARE TALKING AGIAN, AFTER EVERYTHING THAT HAPPEND WITH US. IM GLAD TO BE ABLE TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU. AND THE GOOD PART IS. U WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH ME. I DONT KNO WHAT HAPPENED BUT UR ACTING DIFFERENT, LIKE U CHANGED! AND I LIKE IT ALOT. I THINK THE OLD LACIE THAT I FIRST STARTED DATEING IS COMEING BACK. THANKS HUN! post comment

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